diving into the deep end

ok, here i go. i'm diving into the deep end. or so it seems.

am getting ready to put in a BIG order for mats, poly bags and backboards from redimat.com and i am so nervous. it's the most money i've spent in one lump sum in a long time. i already ordered my photos which, ironically, are a lot less expensive than all the stuff i need to make them look presentable.

this is what i want - to have a start-up collection of photos to sell - but part of me is wondering if i'm thinking too small (although this is the smaller part of me) and i should be ordering in greater quantity to reduce per piece cost. another part of me is wondering if any of this makes sense at all and what will i do with 230 photos if they don't sell? the good thing is that if the photo itself doesn't sell, i can always swap it with one that does.

my collection is a bit overwhelming, even to me. i didn't stick with only 15 photos (my original intention) but instead printed over 100 different photos (all 4 x 6 so pretty economical) just to test the waters to see what people like and what people don't like. i ordered extras of the ones i really like along with bigger prints (8 x 10s, 11 x 14s and one 16 x 20 to test the print quality). i'm not planning to frame any of them at the moment but that's always an option.

here i am about to push "checkout" and am surprised by the nerves that have come up for this moment. why should it be so scary? sure, if it doesn't work i'm out a bit of money - money i could be investing in other areas (and i'm not talking about clothes or fine dining but software) - but i have to have some sort of faith that this is what i'm supposed to be doing and that it will all work out. talk about leaping!!